ACT I CHAPTER 3

Life in the dark ages seemed so restless to the true believers of the modern era.  The lovers would wake up early in the morning and at all hours of the night in order to find comfort in the arms of their soul mate.  It seemed as if they were living out surrealistic fantasies through the eyes of another.  These actors never understood the meaning or the logic of the questions, but they always had their answer to the problem.  It was if they had lived here before.  They knew not from whom or from where it came, but it had indeed come.  What, you ask, was this feeling that had come into their loves and taken control of their souls?  It was that age old feeling of love….love, yes love was the means that guided their destiny and love was the flower that was planted by the seeds of yesterday’s dreams.  Love was the face that drove them to seek the answer…and love was the creator of the face that guided them back.

            They returned back to themselves and back to the world of the living.  You see, it was this age old story of love and romance that brought meaning to the question why?  No need to ask, no need to ponder; the question was answered in the eyes of the fair maiden.  The question was answered in the eyes of a lover.  The question was answered in the eyes of a Queen.  The question was answered in the eyes of love.  The question was answered in the eyes of themselves.  The feeling stirred within and was brought into focus through the faith and through the love.  The doors of perception were opened and the light came shining through…No need to question, no need to seek…the flower of love was growing in the eyes of the meek.

            Every time we question ourselves and try to find the answer to our problem, we are once again confronted with ourselves.  So, you see, it is from within that we seek the truth and from without that we find the answers.  They are always there to find but sometimes not so kind.  Our souls seek guidance from our mate.  As a result, sometimes without knowing, we are guided back to ourselves to find ourselves.  It’s only logical and seems to make sense.  Either in dreams or in reality, we remain together, each seeking the other to find the whole.

            The story is told through and in the eyes but the logic of the situation is sometimes harder to comprehend then the reality of the illusion.  Souls pass by and souls pass in, but the soul never parts when the mate stays within the body of the two.  The two become one and the secret is undone…making love real and making love grow; the vision in the eyes continues to show…the vision in the eyes continues to flow.  The love of the soul takes meaning through the eyes and the magic once again appears.  The soul takes the love and the feelings rise from the heart.  The feelings rise from the heart and give us our start.  Yes, the love of the soul brings the two as one and the magic of the past is complete and undone.

            This story may seem to have changed in tone and quality, but my soul and my mate are controlling my mind and controlling my fate.  So please bear with me as I try to answer the questions that arise in my mind.  I sometimes feel as if I am traveling through time but the story is sublime so it sometimes gets deep and sometimes remains level.  If I can continue my story, then it may bring meaning to myself as well as the reader.

            I write from my heart and my heart is sometimes affected by the wandering spirit that I spoke of in surrealistic terms of endearment.  Remember that age old love story of Romeo and Juliet….that story seems to be the common bond that links my words together in a chain of love.  Each and every day, it will become more into focus but it also may seem harder to comprehend.  It was written to challenge the reader and bring our society to a higher place in space and also in mind.

            The story leads on and out but it continues nevertheless.  After all, the story began when time was in its infant stage.  It began when the soul was one and the feelings were lived by both halves.  Romeo was Juliet and Juliet was Romeo.  They were as one in both body and soul.  They had achieved the height of ecstasy and wanted to feel more…so they were split to experience the feelings of the other.  It was surrealistic but at the same time, it was a living, breathing, fantasy of the mind and body.

            Again our fairytale story of the heart and mind takes us back to the land of real life make believe…or does it?  We once again travel inward and find our story has taken on the direction of surreality once again.  You see, it is easy to comprehend the story when and if we can look beyond our everyday world and look through and in the eyes of love to find the answers.  It seems only logical to seek from within to find the answers.  Let us now begin to look within to find out what in the hell this whole story of fantasy and dreams really does mean!

            So we now ask ourselves, what does it mean?  Who is Juliet? Who is Romeo? Who is Esther? Who are Barbra and Madonna?  The answers were to follow but Juliet once again appeared on the scene and changed my words.  You see, Juliet was to be found in the eyes of the fair maiden but she never understood this so she continued to live out her fantasy through the eyes of an actress.  She had indeed lived out her life through and in the eyes of Romeo, but poor Romeo never knew what hit him.  He never knew why he felt as he did, but he was sure, beyond a doubt, that he felt love for his dearly beloved Juliet.

            Juliet had lived out her love through the ages and in the sages…the sages of past and present alike.  She lived out herself through herself but by herself.  She now found that she needed to find herself but through himself.  Romeo knew but was sad and felt blue.  It was new and true blue but remained old and free…it remained in their eyes for both to see…the light of love remained in their eyes for both to see.  The love affair remained alive because they let it be.  They let the love flow and they let Them know.  They needed to be loved but also longed to be in the heavens above.  Above us, in the blue skies of joy…both Romeo and Juliet remained in the girl and the boy…biding their time until moon project was announced and the stars were aligned with the sun to bring about the spirit of their birth so that they could once again become one.

            As the moon again splits and the sun moves away from the light, Romeo is again trapped within the world wide web of the Queen.  She has left the kitchen and moved into the den. (She wanted to make the move to the bedroom, but it didn’t have a satellite radio or a high definition plasma T.V.) As she moved into the den, the lion of the house was placed in the magical garden and turned into a pussycat.  It came in from the cold and snuggled up next to Romeo as the Queen watched and got jealous.  Romeo studied the cat and tried to plan its every move, but the cat was too quick and sometimes made him look like a fool.  Nevertheless, Romeo became attached to the cat and followed it into the wild world or real life make believe.  Could it be that the pussycat’s eyes contained the light of the fair maiden?  Could it be that the pussycat was the fair maiden in the eyes of the feline?  Could it be that the light of love was shining from the eyes of the pussycat?  Could this be true?  Could this be real? Who dealt these cards? Who made the deal?

            Meanwhile, aboard the Enterprise, Spock was talking to the crew in hopes that they would understand the message that was being sent through a mind meld.  They knew that Romeo was lost in a deep sleep and was searching for his Juliet in his dreams.  Spock could see how much Juliet was affecting the heart and soul of Romeo but he still could not completely understand or comprehend the meaning of love.  How could he?  He never felt it…or did he? After all, Spock was half human and remembered this emotion being taught to him by his mother.

            His mother was indeed human and had once before felt this emotion take control of her life and deliver her to the arms of her husband and friend.  She had found love in the eyes of an alien, but this alien was living in the eyes of a father figure and truly caring individual.  She knew that love was a universal emotion and could be felt by both.  She had remained faithful to her husband and bore him a son…a son to be proud of and a son to be looked after.  She had devoted her lifetime in hopes that she could express the importance of love to her son. But Spock was a completely logical man and questioned any emotion that could not give him a completely logical answer.  It was a trait that he had inherited from his father and brought him respectability and admiration from his fellow trekkies.  All in all, Spock was a friend to Romeo and both respected the feelings of the other….Spock was recalled to the helm and Romeo beamed down to the planet below.

            As the atoms materialized to bring about the figure of Romeo, Juliet was amazed and questioned the moon.  When Romeo came into being, he sought out on a journey into the unknown.  He had been here before, but he could not remember where or when.  He only knew that he had seen his beloved Juliet on the silver screen and could not leave this world until she knew he had returned.  He was to become her friend and builder of her self esteem.  But still, she remained locked in her land of make believe, never realizing the truth that reality could bring.  Romeo knew that it was easy to see when looked at from behind and in front of the wall of illusion.  The wall was indeed high, but Romeo had found the great tool of imagination that could be used to see through and beyond the wall of illusion.  It was found in his and her mind but he only realized this when he questioned the answer to the question Why?

            Look out, Look in….Lift up, Lift off….the story takes on a poetic mood as we travel beyond time and space.  To your left is your fantasy…to your right is the light- the light of love and hope, faith and dreams.  Look now inside and see your eyes beam.  The beam of light is becoming stronger.  The eyes are being brightened by the combined passion of the crew of the Enterprise.  As the crew looks on and the light grows stronger, our story begins to take on a hopeful turn.  If the crew is ready to see the meaning and the actors have unmasked, then this play may take on a turn towards the romantic. (Romeo has not yet met his beloved Juliet, so our story may wander on and out, in and up; beyond and below…we can’t say because we don’t know.)

I'm back from Earth
Still searching for my Juliet
With these words I don't regret
The feelings....they spring from my soul
Like stars being swallowed like a large black hole

If you like I'll change the tone
But please don't let me be the one to be lost alone
Is there another poet who can take my lead?
Is there a woman who will accept my seed?

The game of life has turned lonely and gray
Is there a woman of love who will come my way?....
with smiles of sunshine and poetry in her heart
How long must I wait to let these feelings start?

Oh Juliet, wherefore art thou
Do you still exist in this world of plenty....
Or am I destined to live in this land of cyberspace
Searching for love in a mean and ugly race

A race that shows no signs of real life
Won't you please answer me now and become my wife.

            I hope you, the reader are aroused by the tone of the story.  I seek to arouse the curiosity of myself as well as the reader.  It is for you that I continue and for her that I continue to seek. So if you remain interested in the story, we all may become meek.  What does that word really mean? (He asks himself as he ponders.)  What is meek and who will seek?  I believe that the open-minded, truly romantic, mind expanding artist in us all is trapped within the hearts and minds of our soul.  We just need to set it free to let it be.  We all need to see.  We all need to be….to be meek at heart and return to the feelings that we felt in our youth.  I can still remember my youth but I continue the search to find the truth.  I know it remains in my control, locked within her body and soul, so I must return to the nest to find my role.

            As the sun rose up in the west and set down in the east, the songbird flew out of the nest and sought refuge in the blue skies of love.  The snow-covered hilltops have melted and the spring winds blow the brown-flaked leaves to the brown-green grass below.  The winds of change have started their journey through the open air and the souls of the past continue to seek refuge in the bodies of the present.  The people gather in the open fields and the lovers embrace to become as one.  The air is filled with the smell of Mother Nature and the children awaken from their sleep and wander out into the sun of their future.  Time stands still and the songbird calls out to herself.  She seeks the past, finds the future, and awaits the present.  The fairy tale is read, the poems are written, the story is told and the actors await their roles.  Who will play the parts and who will find their starts?  Who will seek their love and who will fly above?  When will we know?  When will it show?  Romeo called out for Juliet but she never answered.  He left his mind and seeked the truth through time.  Juliet was left in her star-studded world and continued to play her foolish games of the heart.  Romeo tried to find the logic in her situation but was lost in himself and fell deeper within the hole of untold stories.

            I hope I haven’t lost the reader.  That last paragraph was filled with numerous poetic overtones.  I throw them in to keep the story in a surrealistic fairy tale mood.  After all, I am a poet at heart and the words just seem to flow out.  I really don’t know why or where but as long as they keep coming, I’ll keep writing them down.  As the story moves on so does the plot and so goes the story.  As the story moves on, the characters move in and out of the astral plane and into the eyes.  The eyes see the soul and search for their role.  The soul sees the dove and flies up above.  While in the air, we see the earth and return to the place that gave us our birth.

            It seems as if Madonna has found herself and has taken refuge in the eyes of Esther.  While in a state of confusion, Madonna returned to her suspended state to find the feelings that she had experienced in the eyes and actions of Esther.  She discovered that the walls of illusion were slowly being torn town by Romeo, so she returned to her mind and found the innocence of Juliet in the eyes of Esther.  She had indeed become Juliet but the surreality of her situation lead her further within the hole of untold stories and deeper within herself.  She wanted to return to the role of Esther but the déjà vu lead her instead to follow the course of Juliet and find her sexuality in the eyes and actions of Romeo.

            Romeo was shocked to find that Juliet had disappeared so he returned to his suspended state and questioned the moon.   He wanted Juliet to return to her suspended state and question the moon so that they could once again be together in their dreams.  Romeo knew that while in the dream state of the mind, his soul would once again be ignited with the spark of their passion together.  As he fell asleep, Romeo dreamed of the light at the end of the tunnel.  It was still dim, but at least now he could see a spark.  For both Romeo and Juliet knew that the light was dim and to make it bright, they had to go out on a limb.

            The fruits of love were growing on the tree of knowledge.  We once again take a turn back in time and mind to return to that far off land of make believe.  The tree of knowledge was growing larger and stronger and its branches are beginning to uncover the buds that grew in its youth.  In the garden of this paradise, we find that the snow has melted and given birth to the many fruitful flowers that were hidden by the cold and lonely winter.  The seeds that were planted in the summer have endured the harsh winter to bring about the growth of the spring harvest.  The rose once again shines its radiant glow and the creatures of the garden once again illuminate the atmosphere and the soul of the songbird flies free in the open air.  As her song fills the airwaves of the sky, the lovers wander out of their shelter and peer into the blue skies above….the blue skies of joy, the blue skies of love.  Once again, the children are together, playing on the green grass of the paradise reborn.

            Romeo awakens from his sleep and wanders out of the cave.  He looks up and sees the dove take flight.  He studies its every movement as the dove floats free with the open air.  His eyes are fixed on this winged bird of beauty when he hears the mating call of the songbird cry out across the windmills of his mind.   He gets lost in a memory and recalls the vision of his dearly beloved Juliet once again in his arms.  He wants her.  He needs her.  He loves her.  But does she love him?  Does she need him?  Does she want him?  Is he alive in her memory or is he lost within a pool of emotion?  He has reached out for her love and given freely from his soul….but still he is lost and can’t find his role.  Will he survive or will he fall?  The questions lead to more answers and the answers lead to more questions.

            As our story continues, we see that Barbra is still in desperate search of the answer to the question why?  Romeo sees that her search has brought her soul into the hearts and minds of the common people.  Her image, which was once larger then life, has now progressed to take on the form of the fair maiden.  She has climbed the mountain, reached the peak, and is traveling back in time to find the feelings that she once felt in her youth.  While on her climb to the top, she had indeed come across many barriers, but her faith in herself and her goal lead, and at times pushed herself to continue up, above, and beyond on her lifelong search for the truth.  Many tried to stop her.  Many tried to beat her.  Many tried to follow her.  Many even questioned her motives and her logic.  But still, she listened to the voice from inside and forged the path that lead her to the top of the mountain.  And so, she stands at the top and looks around but where is the happiness They said would be found?  She climbed the mountain, but she climbed it alone.  She has now found a husband but continues to seek the happiness she found in her home.

             As Barbra continues her search for the truth, Romeo sits alone and watches as the sun moves closer to the moon.  He sees Barbra in her youth and hopes and prays that she will once again return to her suspended state and see through the eyes of the fair maiden.(He knew that his Juliet was to be found in the eyes of the fair maiden so he desperately tried to break through the walls that appeared around his beloved Juliet.) As the walls begin to fall apart, Barbra can see Danny watching her from the inside.  You see, Danny was a part of Yentl (a.k.a Barbra) and Yentl was a part of Juliet who was a part of Romeo. If you believe in past lives then this story may have more meaning to the reader.

            As I said before, this story may be true for some and a part of others.  With this in mind, you must bare with me as we continue our search within the unknown corridors of the mind.  As we seek the truth through time, we travel in and out of the realistic world and in and out of the sublime.  As we continue on our journey, it may become even more confusing then it already appears to be.  Consider it a challenge to your mind as we continue on with the story…into the day, out of the night, back to the mind and back to the light.

            As Danny grew older, he began to grow weaker in body but stronger in faith.  He needed the sight of Barbra or Madonna in order to survive in his world.  He wanted to break through the walls and find himself.  He was at a point where time stood still.  He needed to experience the touch of his alter ego as much as he needed to experience the wonders of life.  He needed Juliet now more then ever.  He continued to call out to Barbra and Madonna but still they refused to answer.  Why did they insist on playing their foolish games of the heart?  He wanted to know.  She wanted to see.  Together, they would grow as one and create the ecstasy.

If you look at a woman with eyes of respect
You will always be respected in turn
With no bridges to be burned
How she acts is her way of showing
That there really is no way of knowing
What her next re-invention will be
But you can be sure it will have an effect on you and me
What that effect will be is up to you and me
For we all view Madonna in a separate piece of mind
Changing our opinions as she changes throughout time
So Esther, act if you will and sing if you may
But please keep the music coming our way

And I’ll continue to write your reality play….

            As each day passed, Romeo began to draw deeper and deeper within himself.  He needed Juliet but he never knew if Juliet needed him.  His head began to turn and his mind began to spin.  He was at a point of no return.  He wanted to go forward, but something made him stay.  He wanted to break free…to let it be…to find the magic, the love and the ecstasy.  Romeo began to take on the role of Daniel as he fell deeper and deeper within the hole of untold stories.

            Our story now leads us back to the land of make-believe.  We find that the Queen has invited some guests to join her in the den.  As night falls on the castle, the Queen is seen by her guests and takes refuge in the eyes of Esther.  Esther looks across the table and sees the glowing light of love beaming from the eyes of the stranger.  The stranger looks up and is caught by the beam of light that shines a bright from the eyes of Esther.  Their eyes become one and the secret is undone.  They leave their seats and draw closer to the light that shines from within each of their souls.  A special feeling, a new sensation was beginning to take control of their bodies as they reached out to question the shining light from within.

The light of love is always here to stay          

The light of love will show us the way

The light of love shines from within

The light of love gives us the reason to win

The light of love is a gift of God in all of His might

The light of love will make us all feel right

The light of love is unknown to those who feel blue

The light of love will make us all feel new

The light of love shines a bright from a newborn child

The light of love is unknown to those who are wild

The light of love beams in the eyes when the walls disappear

The light of love beams in the eyes of those who are sincere

The light of love can change our life

The light of love makes us husband and wife

The light of love will surround the world

The light of love will let the secret unfurl

The light of love is special indeed

The light of love will cast out our greed

The light of love will set our souls free

The light of love will let the feeling be

The light of love will let all of us see

The light of love will show us the truth

The light of love will bring us our youth

The light of love has the magic, it has the power

The light of love will plant the seeds, to grow the flower

The light of love will shine from within…

When we know in our hearts that we all must begin

If we let the light shine from within our faces…

The light of love will give us our places

The light of love is precious and true

The light of love is always in me, it’s always in you

The light of love will rule the world…

When all of God’s children let the secret unfurl

The light of love is always here to stay

The light of love will show us the way

The light of love shines from within

The light of love gives us the reason to win…

            Esther begins to tremble as the stranger moves in closer with the light of love beaming from his eyes.  The stranger tries to speak but the words become locked within his mind.  He too begins to tremble as he moves in closer and looks through the light of love in her eyes….Eyes that once shined of blue and green….eyes that weep with joy…eyes that shine a bright from a newborn girl or boy.  The light of love was flowing from her eyes and into his soul….his head began to spin and his mind began to roll.  He seemed to lose control as he moved yet one step closer to the fair maiden.

            “My name is Daniel, the son of James.  I come from the land of Brotherly Love.  I have traveled to this castle in search of the meaning to the shining star.” He speaks these words in the soft-spoken language of love.  Esther is dazed and confused, aroused and excited.  Could this be the man of her dreams? Could this be the stranger of her fantasy?  Could he be the boy who came calling in her youth?  Could this be her moment?  Who would make the first move?  Why did he make her tremble?  Why did she make him tremble?  The answers were to follow but Juliet once again entered the scene and changed the mood.

            The story seems to be getting romantic.  As we travel deeper within the hole of untold stories, the plot may begin to come into focus.  If we search our minds, we may even seek the truth through time.  Only time will tell if the love will show and continue to grow….Romeo drifted up and out of the castle and Danny was left behind to carry on his conversation with Esther.  We now follow Romeo as he is beamed aboard the Enterprise to confer with Mr. Spock…

            Romeo returns to the helm and asks Spock if the crew has heard the voice and seen the light.  Spock tells Romeo that he is unsure of their actions because he has not yet received a response.  Romeo is confused by the actions of the crew and cannot find a logical answer in their situation.  Spock feels the same and confers with Romeo.  They discuss their next course of action as the Enterprise moves in closer to watch over and protect the movements of the long lost children of planet Earth.

            When will the children awaken from their sleep and find the courage to face life on their own?  When will the children look beyond the walls of the illusion of fame and fortune and see the true valley that lies outside their walls?  Is there a wall or is it just an illusion of the mind?  Are we just children in the dark or are we in the dark living with our children?  Are we brothers and sisters living on an alien planet?  Are we the only planet with intelligent life?  How many planets are in our galaxy?  What is a galaxy made of and who made it?  How many galaxies are in the universe?  Who lives in those galaxies?  Can we travel to those galaxies?  Will we travel through those galaxies?  Am I spelling that word right?  Where does the universe end?  Where did it begin?  Did it have a beginning?  What was before the universe?  Tell me, I’d like to know.

            Sorry, my mind seems to have wandered again.  Love has no measure of time.  It seems as if our journey through gravity and time has left us with many unanswered questions.  So, we must once again stop here for a moment in time in order to collect our thoughts and ponder at the questions.  There are many questions left unanswered and many answers left unquestioned but they may come to fruition in the next chapter or the next book.  The romance is heating up between Danny and Esther and the love is getting stronger so stay tuned to a Plasma T.V. or theatre of the mind near you.  Our journey will continue…out into space…deep into the night…through the emotion….void of fright….our story will continue when all can see the light.

            As we continue to construct our International Space Station in Earth orbit, this fairytale love story of the heart and soul will take a pause as we work together as a united planet.  Hopefully, we will soon announce new ways to return to space and our Moon and establish a permanent human presence on Luna.  Remember, love has no measure of time… in or out of the surreal and back into the sublime...the great space race will soon include the first woman to walk on the moon.  We can make it so…Let’s make it soon!

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